I think one of my friends said it best when they said just when they
feel like they are beginning to know God and understand him, he does
something so incredible and crazy and complex that it feels like you
don’t know him at all. I feel like that’s what this whole week was.
Just when I felt like I was getting some sort of a handle on God, he
blows my mind.
As I was talking with my roommate tonight, she reminded me of this
verse: “Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can
understand.” -Philippians 4:7a
Man, if just God’s peace exceeds anything we can understand, then think
about how far over our heads the whole of God goes!
Regardless, God opened new doors for me this week. He showed me new
ways to communicate with him and to new ways to grow and new things to
look forward to in our relationship. Christ is stirring in me things I
didn’t even know were possible for me to desire. Christ has begun a
great work in me and he is continuing it!
for a long time but it wasn’t until I heard it this week while we were
working at the Nashville Rescue Mission that it really hit home for me.
Check it out.
It’s time for healing time to move on
It’s time to fix what’s been broken too long
Time make right what has been wrong
It’s time to find my way to where I belong
There’s a wave that’s crashing over me
All I can do is surrender
Whatever you’re doing inside of me
It feels like chaos somehow there’s peace
It’s hard to surrender to what I can’t see
but I’m giving in to something heavenly
Doing“- Sanctus Real)
The fact is what Christ is doing in me is something so much bigger than
me. Something we talked about this past week was how we are building
the Kingdom of God. We ARE the Kingdom. Where ever we step we are
planting seeds for the Kingdom. My point is that as God is continuing
this great work, one that feels a little crazy and chaotic, I have peace
knowing that it’s not all about me. He is building me to be a strong
woman warrior in Him. He is calling me to follow his will and I have to
the choice to obey or wonder aimlessly. And to be perfectly honest, I
have never been more ready to follow God in whatever he wants me to do.
And I mean WHATEVER. I am surrendering it all to him, listening for
his voice, and obeying his clear call.
The restlessness has returned. This week was a taste of what my heart
desires, of the closeness of an amazing community of believers and a
closeness with Christ that was supernatural and beautiful. I’m already
missing Nashville and our group. Being back in Harrisonburg is so
surreal. I can’t even really explain it.
Lord, please still my heart. Calm my restlessness. Help me continue to
plant the seeds of your Kingdom right here where I am.
